Longing for My Mother Who Passed Away

Hello to you all, 

I want to thank you for your wonderful website and for the very interesting classes that you broadcast throughout the day on television. Most of the time I watch these classes, because almost nothing that is on television interests me; what they broadcast is so not educational, or something that can give a person perspective in life, but rather injustice and foolishness, like the dumbest show, The Big Brother. So thank you very much for having your classes. I am writing to you because I need help. Five years ago my mother passed away. They say that time is the best medicine, and with time the wound heals and one misses her less, but for me it is not like that. I miss my mother very much, and every day it is harder. I so, so want to feel her and see her and hug her, and when I cannot because she died, I feel that my soul is suffering. I cannot bear it anymore; every so often I cry from longing. Every Friday evening at candle-lighting I give charity in her merit for the elevation of her soul and tell her how much I miss her. The sadness is very, very great, and sometimes I tell my mother and Hashem that I want to go to my mother, but I am realistic and know that I cannot, because I must remain for the sake of my four children who need me, and also the thought of going to the World to Come and leaving them in this world without me, as my mother did to me, is very difficult for me. I would very much like you to help me find someone who can communicate with the World to Come so that I can feel or hear my mother. And if possible, that Rabbi Yitzchak Fanger contact me, because I know that the rabbi can help; he has tremendous influence. 

I thank you again and hope you can help me. 

Thank you, Rinat.